“YOU‘RE MOVING TO MISSISSIPPI? You must
be kidding me!” That was the response of my friends
and colleagues when I announced that I’d fallen in
love with a southern gentleman, after an impetuous
courtship, and I was packing to move to a little town
none of us had ever heard of—Ocean Springs,
Mississippi, right on the Gulf of Mexico.
Those in my entire circle in New York and L.A.
were in shock; they couldn’t fathom that I would
leave my beloved Manhattan, my apartment in
Tribeca, and my bi-coastal lifestyle. I had been a
struggling actress in New York and L.A. and felt
equally at home on both coasts. Now I was working
full-time in the cosmetics industry and traveling frequently
from coast to coast.
During one of my monthly
business trips to Houston I met Barbara and Jimmie
Lewis, a couple I liked immediately. Six months later,
Barbara said, “I have a man in mind for you.” Because
I trusted them, I agreed that Barbara could give Jerry
my phone number. That was a life-changing moment;
it was how I eventually met my husband.
Although I wasn’t wealthy, my life thus far (June
1998) had held a measure of sophistication and glamour—
Broadway shows, the Metropolitan Museum of
Art, the New York Philharmonic, the Los Angeles
Philharmonic, and other cultural events intrinsic to
great metropolises. To an arts lover like me, it was an
ideal existence, and I thrived on it. It would be an
impossible adjustment, my companions said. I was the
quintessential urbanite, and big city excitement was
as necessary as oxygen for me. And I wasn’t nineteen
anymore; I was a woman of “a certain age.”
“What will you do there?” my compatriots
demanded to know. I was not domestic, had no interest
in gardening, golf, or fishing, and I had never lived
in any place smaller than a major metropolis. But I
wasn’t worried about finding things to do. I looked
forward to exploring another part of the country.
JERRY READ and I were married on June 20, 1998, at
Green Oaks Bed & Breakfast in Biloxi, Mississippi, in
an intimate ceremony with only four people attending.
The day was hot and still, and not a leaf stirred
on the massive, ancient oaks. But it was beautiful and sunny, with a pristine sky poised over the Gulf, a
lovely setting. Jerry had arranged the wedding, and
the scene was redolent of the romance of the legendary
Old South. Built in the early 1800s without
the use of a single nail, Green Oaks was the perfect
introduction to the traditional South—an exquisite
architectural piece of south Mississippi’s landscape,
now part of my own personal history. On that sweltering
day, we sat on the expansive verandah, with its
old-fashioned swing, and “petticoat staircase” below.
I imagined nineteenth century men ascending the
stairs, sneaking a glimpse of the ladies’ ankles as they
floated up the facing staircase, petticoats slightly
raised. At Green Oaks I sipped my first mint julep.
The day following our nuptials, our wedding party set
out for New Orleans for a Sunday jazz brunch at
Commander’s Palace, the white and turquoise
Victorian restaurant in the Garden District. In this
1880 dining establishment, I enjoyed the best Bloody
Mary I’d ever tasted. My new life had begun.
Since then, I’ve discovered much, and slowly shed
my prejudices. I relinquished the provincialism of the
intransigent New Yorker—an urbane provincialism,
it’s true, but narrowly regional nonetheless. One New
Yorker at a luncheon counter on Lexington Avenue
expressed her civic pride with these words: “When ya
leave New Yawk, ya not going anywhere.”
WAS MY ADJUSTMENT easy? No. Of course, I missed
the newest exhibit at the Met, the evenings
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at Lincoln Center, the foreign films, and the chic boutiques
within three minutes of my apartment. But it
was an adjustment worth making, not only because I
had married an exceptional man, but also because my
vision expanded.
I DON’T KNOW if there was a single moment when I
let go of the homesickness and embraced Mississippi.
Perhaps it was that first spring, when, amazed by the
sudden appearance of fuchsia azaleas in full bloom, I
walked to my front yard mailbox. A sandy-haired boy
about ten years old, straight out of a Norman
Rockwell painting, was lying on the limb of a tree.
Half obscured by the leaves, he eyed me with friendly
curiosity. “Hi,” he said, with a winning smile, not
moving from his perch. I was disarmed. Coming upon
a boy in this way may be nothing special to a rural
Mississippian, but I had seen meetings like this only
in Frank Capra movies.
My beguilement with the quirkiness of
Mississippians, however, probably happened more
gradually. I was surprised that the most accomplished
Mississippians hold on to their earthy qualities.
Some, even as adults, retain improbable childhood
nicknames such as Doodles, Tootie, Fofo, Squattsy,
Sankie, and Bootsie.
One unbearably hot June evening shortly before
our wedding, Jerry’s longtime friend Frank Hunger
was coming to New Orleans, and we were looking
forward to seeing him. A Mississippi native, he is a
man of many achievements, and at the time was
the head of the Civil Division of the Justice
Department.
Lean bodied and silver haired, Frank
sauntered into Commander’s Palace, reached into
his jacket pocket, and said, “Daisy, I brought you
some peppers from my yard.” To my Yankee ears, it
sounded like this: “Daisy, Ah brought you some peppahs
from mah yawd.” He then nonchalantly
extracted the loose vegetables from his Saks Fifth
Avenue suit—the modest, unaffected gesture of a
Gary Cooper. A lack of pretense is one of the most
engaging characteristics of Mississippians.
THE SOUNDS of Mississippi captivated me, too, like
the plaintive whistle of the train that passed through
Ocean Springs and across Biloxi Bay in the dark of
night. So this was the sound that stirred the wanderlust
of young people in isolated areas of this huge
country, conjuring up images they had read about.
The melodic ancient Indian names charmed me.
In times long past, the Biloxi (first people) spoke of
the Yazoo (River of the Dead), the Escatawpa
(Laughing Waters), and Pascagoula (the Singing
River). The names were delightful to my ear.
I heard the legend of the Pascagoula River. The
most famous of these tales describes the last chief of
the Pascagoula tribe, who had lost all of his warriors
in the deadly war with the Biloxi Indians. As the only
surviving warrior of the last battle, with the enemy in
relentless pursuit, he led the women and children,
joining hands and singing, from the Pascagoula River
to the sea, preferring the honor of death in the
beloved waters to the shame and horror of captivity.
Residents still claim to hear a mournful, otherworldly
sound around midnight, although they can’t predict
exactly when it will occur. People say it’s the
song of death of the Pascagoula Indians’ souls.
THOUGH I CAN’T IDENTIFY the precise time
Mississippi insinuated itself into my soul, I do know
this: no matter how genuinely southerners welcome
the outsider—and Mississippians are truly inclusive—
you never really become a part of the South. But the
South becomes an indelible part of you. |